meh.

so, i haven't blogged in like 3 months? a lot has happened during that time but i doubt i'll remember it all...
first of all, i've decided Jenna, Micah, Brandon, & Austin [also my boyfriend] are the only best friends i have. yeah, i have other friends. but i rarely "talk" to em anymore so there's no reason to call em my best friends.
i went to a mall in Columbus & got some of my Christmas presents. (: the bad thing about that is i know what i got so i want it now.. lol. dang. /:
i really wanna go to Warped in the summer but none of my friends listen to that kind of music. ): soab.
my ex like hates me now, just because i was kidding around with him. for real bro? grow up. & your girlfriend's ugly. just sayin'.
i hate that Austin randomly disappears. ._. i understand if he falls asleep, but if he gets busy or wants to stop texting, then just tell me. gawsh. /:
i've changed a lot since my last relationship. i used to be controlling, jealous, blah blah blah. now i don't care what they do. they can talk/text as many girls as they want, (as long as no flirting is coming from them) they can do anything they want, & so on. as long as they're faithful to me only, we should be okay. (: i'm always faithful to any guy i'm with. i just happen to look sometimes. (; haha. i don't know why i used to be so uptight. that's prolly why i was left in both my amazing past relationships. i just wish i could take back those mistakes.
oh snap. today would've been our one year. how exciting. ._.
i need to call this woman to see if she sold my games but i don't really want to. i have a feeling she didn't anyways, nobody plays those kind of games anymore. lmao.
OMG. i went to a concert one night. it was freaking crazy... but amazing. i drove with Amber & Morgan. but Brandon & Austin were there too. we moshed our hearts out. i took out a few dudes. xD & the lead singer of one of the bands added me on facebook? creep much. but you're hot bro so i honestly don't care. :3
well, i'm tired of rambling. peace. (:

a rant that's been on my mind lately.

people judge others like crazy. if they dress a certain way, act a different way, or just something about them is different, they're judged. who cares? they're them. you're not. you shouldn't judge anyone that you see, meet, etc. you've NEVER walked in their shoes and NEVER will. you don't know their whole story. who gives a flying cow turd if they wear different clothes than you? you shouldn't. because i don't. i don't judge anyone. i'm honestly tired of stereotypes. if there wasn't anything like this going on, the world would be a much, MUCH better place. maybe some people are treated badly at home, that's why they seek attention in public. maybe some people feel like they don't belong, that's why they act differently. maybe some people just want to be accepted, that's why they give in to peer pressure and make bad choices. that doesn't matter. it's their life, let them live it. if you make fun of someone, you're just hurting yourself.

so, who are you to judge someone?

]:

sorry i haven't been blogging guys! D:
it's either i don't have the time, i'm trying to catch some sleep, or i just have nothing to say.
i don't really have anything to say except that i'm sooo stoked for tomorrow. [:
i finally get to be Johnny 3 Tears. <3
i'm worried about my Fishy. ]: (Fishy's his name so that's why it's capitalized, btw.)
ewewew.
there was just a ladybug on my desk and i'm afraid of them. /:
i hate basically any type of bug.
well, i don't have anything else on my mind. lmao.
ttfn! :D

good day?

i'm not sure if today was a good day or not. ._.
tho i'm thinking about someone... [:
TECH N9NE IS THE SHIZNIT.
so, twitter is pretty much my addiction now. xD so feel free to follow me.
a couple of people told me to today they think the guy i told i liked likes me back. but i'm positive they're just saying that to make me feel better. -.- i just wanna be happy with someone... GAHGAHGAH.
i'm not sure what else to say sooo, i'm ending with this nice quote. [:
"you don't have to like me, i'm not a facebook status." <- legit.

I FORGOT!!!

i'm being Johnny 3 Tears for halloween!
I'M SO FREAKING EXCITED!!!


[if you don't know who that is, die.]












[[just kidding. he's a band member of Hollywood Undead. they're amazing. :p]]

gah!

i haven't blogged in a week. >.<
well, not much has happened.
the band did amazing saturday night but the judges thought different. everyone has their own opinions. but i personally think they all were smoking crack that day and we had a terrible time slot; first to compete.
friday night went pretty well. i've never heard "you look so beautiful!" [and any other way you could say that] so many times in one night. ._. as Cody, Michael, and i were standing/walking onto the field, they had me laughing like crazy. i'm glad i picked them. xD they kept me laughing and they're probably the reason i wasn't that nervous. lol. so thanks a lot guys, even tho you don't read this. :p
i did get to dance with Michael a couple of times at the dance tho. ^.^ and Nick and Adam. they were all nice. :D
i finally told the person i like that i liked them yesterday. didn't get the response i dreamed of but yanno, that never happens for me. /: oh well i guess...
is it weird i still want to be friends with my most recent ex? i hope not. cause it's true. tho something he said is utterly ridiculous but i'm not repeating it... -.-
so this kid i used to text forever, and like everyday, gets a girlfriend and boom. i'm basically nonexistant. whatever bro.
i'm worried about my Fishy. ]: he keeps laying in the rocks and i'm afraid he's dying. D: if anyone knows what's wrong with him, please let me know!
i wanna listen to music but i'm not sure what i want to listen to. hmmm...
wow. i turn my itunes on and put it on shuffle and the first thing that comes on is Fergalicious. xDDD
i've had sooo much sleep the past 2 days, it's unbelievable. I FEEL GREAT! :D too bad it's all prolly gonna go away within a couple days. -.-
one of my friends is moving to a different school. ]: i'm gonna miss her greatly!
speaking of moving, i'm tempted to move. /: i'm honestly getting tired of just about everyone here except like 2.
idk tho. i doubt i will. moving schools would be hard. >.<
well, i think i updated everyone enough. so bye bye! :D

/:

i'm honestly so stressed i can't think of anything to say...
but one of my exes friend's is trying to add me back on facebook after she said she hated me? hah. little girls these days. -.-
tomorrow's career day for spirit week! i'm gonna be some type of fashion-y business person. lmao.
wish me luck!

Lee <3

worn.

i hate that everytime i like or fall for a guy really hard, i always get broke..
can i never be happy with anyone?

:DDD

i'm in a really good mood and i have NO idea why! :D
a lto on my mind apparently makes me happy? psh. lol.
what would make me happier is if i seen my chucks have been shipped. SO, i'm gonna go look...
it's taking forever to load... SHEESH.
nope, still being processed. ]':
oh well, still in a happy mood. ^.^
i love texting boys. i'm not sure why, i just do. lmao.
this week shall be great! xD it's spirit week and i plan on doing each day!
monday - pajama day.
tuesday - career day. [i'm wearing a red tie.]
wednesday - cowboys vs. indians. [still working on it but i'm determined to be an indian.]
thursday - dress like an athelete. [football player. 'nuff said.]
friday - spirit day. [GOIN' ALL OUT YA!]
and friday is homecoming. woop woop! hopefully my escorts decide to be nice and go to the dance and be even nicer and dance with me. ^.^ haha. they're real adorable. sigh. /:
there's only 2 people keeping me sane right now. and that'd be Taylor and Brandon. both younger. hm. but i loves em. ^.^
OH OH OH! we got our 1 at the competition today! :DDD yayayayayay! people were crying which was dumb. -.- but it happens.
ummm, i dunno what else to say. if i think of anything else, i shall blog more! :D
peace out girl scouts! [quote of Mo.]

my momma. [:

my mom is the absolute best.
my whole 16 years i've been on this earth, she's been giving me what i need and want and pushing me in the best direction.
she works, goes to school, manages seeing my brother and i, has a long relationship, and all kinds of other things.
she's the strongest woman i know.
i want to thank her for everything she does for me.
she's amazing and i hope she realizes it.
i love you with all my heart mom. <3

today.

i'm very, very tired.

tho i'm not sure why because i got a little more sleep last night than i usually do?

i was hyper in the morning. but as the day progressed, i was getting more and more tired.

so, i'm listening to Skillet and their lyrics is making me want to cry. /:

i never cry anymore either!

today's class was pretty good.

he let us out like half an hour early. it's so great when he does that. ^.^

well, nothing else to really talk about so i'm going to get off and go to bed.

goodnighttt. <3

dear you.

you won't read this so i can openly say what i want.
i honestly think about you a few times during the day and at least once while laying in bed, waiting for sleep to meet me.
i know you don't ever think about me anymore but you know what? it still hurts but i'm basically over the fact it's true.
the way you've became, we'll never be together again and i realize this.
i wish it wasn't true because i miss you.
i miss the way you looked at me.
i miss the way you held me.
i miss the way i could be myself around you and you accepted me.
we had sooo many memories together.
how could it just end so quickly?
i never knew how bad i had needed you until i lost you.
we fought a lot but the good definitely outweighed that.
we both lied. i wish i could take mine back.
"i need a hero to save me now." <- this song just came on. that's how i feel about you.
you always knew what to say to make me feel better.
you always tried to help me with whatever problem i was having, NO MATTER WHAT.
and that's one of the many reasons i loved you.
i finally realized i talk about myself too much.. maybe that's why things ended.
i severely regret anything negative i said to you because i never meant it.
you were the most positive thing i had ever had in my life.
this brought me to my senses. i still feel like i'm missing half of me. i hate feeling like i'm just going through life with no reason.
i just wish i could have one more chance...

p.s. i'm not sure who this is to.

honestly.

today has been a day where i've been lost in my thoughts majority of the time. many people ask me what's wrong, i say i don't know, and they don't believe me. but i honestly do not know. if i did, i may be able to fix it. knowing my luck tho, i couldn't. i never can.
i'm tired of missing people. i'm tired of not being loved back. i'm tired of not knowing other peoples' feelings. i'm tired of being alone. i'm tired of everything in general..
band is killing me.. each day i dislike it more and more. i'm not sure what's going on. i'm having thoughts of dropping it next year. people get too stressed over it, including the director. i'm sick of people having attitude for no reason. i'm so close to just ripping peoples' heads off and/or screaming at the top of my lungs until i lose my voice.
the only positive thing i have to say/think about right now is homecoming. i'm sooo stoked for it. my dress is amazing. i'm making new friends that i hope to keep. and my convertible is gonna be amazing. :D
sooo, this band named Suicide Silence sounds like satan has eaten their souls, taken over their bodies, and growls/screams with em and they're pretty much amazing. i worship their screams. i wanna be able to do it like them, so bad. >.<
I WISH I KNEW WHAT WAS WRONG WITH ME!
so uhhh, i dunno what else to say. so later gators.

dazed and confused.

first of all, yes, i used a Led Zeppelin song name for my title. but it sooo fits me right now...
i'm honestly just wanting to break down and cry. one of my older best friends has to move away because he got in trouble. now, another friend that's basically became one of my best friends, is moving after christmas break.. we've only hung out a couple of times but text almost everyday. i just don't want him to move schools for some reason. /:
i guess i just feel like i'm being torn away from everyone.. majorrr heartbreak last month, friends turning out to not being friends, people moving away. jeez, i just need time to stop...
i'm not sure if i'm ready to grow up if this is how it is all the time. my emotional being is not stable enough for this kind of stuff. buttt, blogging seems to help a little so i can express my feelings to people, but not knowing who. [feel free to tell me if you read it tho]
on positive note of this crappy day, i got my homecoming dress. [: that's about the only good thing that's happened to me for awhile...

hmmm.

i forgot to mention in last night's post that Kelsey inspired me to start blogging. so yayyy Kelsey! :p


i just got finished with my college math test a little bit ago, phew. i hope i did really good. if i get everything i did right, i should get a 97. how awesome would that be?! :D
i'm totally jamming right now. ^.^
i'm extremely excited for homecoming and i haven't even gotten my dress yet. lol.
so, i wish my feelings would straighten themselves out.. right now, i don't even know what to do. so all i'm doing is... nothing. and that's so unlike me. ugh. i miss more than one person but i want to move on.
right now i'm debating if i want to read or play sims. two of my favorite things to do. lol. i think i'll play sims so later gators. ^.^

introduction to me. [:

well hey you. :p
if you're actually reading this, you're my new best friend.
i'm not sure what exactly blogging is but from what i've gathered, it's about anything you want. so this is perfect for me because i ramble a lot! :D
well, if you don't know me, i shall explain a little about myself.
i'm Leslie [i'm sure you already know this]. i'm addicted to having fun, listening to music, and chilling with my friends. i'm in band, baritone is my instrument. i have a feeling i'm gonna be addicted to blogging so every chance i get i most likely will be typing away. as i type this, the "save now" button keeps blinking because it's saving as a draft like every 2 seconds and it's REALLY getting on my nerves. i go off topic a lot. i have a short memory span, seriously. i've been hurt too many times in my short life. i have a little brother that amazes me every day. my family means everything to me. i don't know what i want to be when i grow up. but i do know that i want a nice paying job and i want to own my own salon on the side with an amazing husband and a few kids. i'd love to make an impact on the world, big or small. i enjoy piercings and tattoos. i have 6 piercings so far; 5 in my ears & then my bellybutton. skulls are cute. my favorite colors are blue, black, red -> in that order. i love math. there's only a handful of people i can actually trust. it takes quite awhile for me to trust guys now. i love making new friends. i hate when people lie. but i've done it, hurt people, and now i regret it to the point i don't do it anymore. i've made a lot of mistakes. i wish i could take a lot of things back. i wish there was a cure for all diseases, especially cancer. i try to help out anyone at any time. i get rather tired of hearing black jokes. surprisingly, i got junior homecoming attendant this year. i'm superrr excited. AND i have 2 totally amazing and cute guys for my escorts. [; the save button is still annoying me. topless by breaking benjamin just came on my itunes. :o i figured out that skillet is an amazing band, just by listening to a few songs of theirs. "friends" aren't supposed to go after one of your serious exboyfriends. but mine does. i'm really hoping i can go to 2 concerts in november. because if i do, i'll die happy. i have a fish. i named him Fishy. thought it suited him quite well.
i didn't realize how long i've been talking about myself so i'm gonna quit now, my bad. xD